Tuesday, May 31, 2005
i'm not ready!!! for camp that's it.i really mean it. i mean i haven even packed finish! and it's like.. 1 plus in the morning? on the day of the camp itself?! oh man.. and i just realised that: i dun have my poncho (which is veryvery impt), i dun have a 1.5 water bottle. i can't find my jacket. and most probably i had forgotten to bring some impt stuff which i will only realise when i reach camp. well.. can't think now! i haven even plan wad to say for the briefing and the dedrief! oMg! i'm so dead!! den again i can plan tml when i have nuthing to do FOR THE WHOLE DAY. wEeLL.. i can't wait for thur. thats when my horrible horrible sea ex is over and i will be able to SLACK in school.. WoAHo~ can't. wait. for. camp. to. end.i miss u!!!~~ smiley face smiley face
freedom in her soul at 1:16:00 AM
Sunday, May 29, 2005
holidays! great singapore sale! studies! -_- so many things so little time..finally MADAGASCAR is out but no one to watch with me. starwars too =(whole body aching. thanks to the recee. anyway many many thanks to jinwei, yongjie, weijian and feiqin for coming too! not like SOME people who still dare to say they dun wanna go becoz they 'dun feel like it'. den i 'dun feel like' going for ltc den dun go isit? at least give me a stupid excuse la! the devil and miss prym - paulo coelho".. poeple want to change everything and, at the same time want it to remain the same.""good and evil have the same face; it all depends on wheh they cross the path of each human being.""playing the part of a charitable soul was only for those who were afraid of taking a stand in life. it is always far easier to have faith in your own goodness than to confront others and fight for your rights. it is always easier to hear an insult and not retaliate than have the courage to fight back againt someone stronger than yourself; we can always say we're not hurt by the stones others throw at us, and it's only at night....that we can silently grieve over our own cowardice."
freedom in her soul at 11:21:00 PM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
ArGh~ fed up with all the electronics in my life! haha seriously! my msn can't play games. my scanner dun work. my microsoft office is not installed. and i suspect there is a virus in my com. at least that is wad the virus scanner thingy tells me. but they also nv say how to solve it. i'm just suppose to click 'okay' a few times. now will be a good time to change computer WahaHafinally things are looking up (i hope?) haha moanday. tearday. wailday. thumpsday. frightday. shatterday.
freedom in her soul at 11:20:00 PM
Sunday, May 22, 2005

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freedom in her soul at 11:59:00 PM
hmm feel kinda stupid rereading wad i wrote yest.. but well it's over!! see?! today IS a better day! haha thanksthanksthanks again! =)went out with my sisters today. so long since only the 3 of us went out. saw xiong and zt too! catch up on each other.. n.y.d.c must try the mudpie! #100 irish something something..extra hype today! ahhaha
freedom in her soul at 11:59:00 AM
Saturday, May 21, 2005
now i totally noe the meaning of hou bu dan xing...if i say yesterday was worse, today will win hands down. first is the getting lostsecond is the 'car accident'third is the not going for college day coz i'm lateif that wasn't already bad enough, kallang ssc have to add the cherry on top by giving me another blowi'm just so tired.. evening recalling wad happened makes me tired.stood staring at the mrt map for 10 mins. i dun even noe where to go next, wad to do.scrolled thru names in my hp. i dun even noe who to call. or if i wanna call anyone.called ht anyway.i need to do sth yet i wanna do nuthing.i wanna talk to someone yet i wanna be alone.i wanna run away yet i need face the prob.i chose to run away.i feel so sorry and guilty that i called ht out den changed my mind the last min. and to daryk for causing him so much prob on my part. and to the j1s for keep changing the 1 star thing. and to my jc friends for missing out their performances. and utimately to my bro for wasting his gas, time and money and for causing the accident which also scratch his new car. and the thing that he didnt scold me and even asked if i'm okay really makes me even more sad and guilty and touched. unlike my parents who rushed to see if their new year cookies are fine but forgot abt their daughter who fell too.in the end i dunno how i end up in orchard library. but i just wanna get away from people and noise. i know it sounds weird but i feel safe in the library being surrounded by books. there, no one judges u and u can escape into another world. that's y i love books. because i like to run away.anyway i'm fine now. coz in a few hours, today will become yesterday.
freedom in her soul at 9:45:00 PM
Friday, May 20, 2005
fatalismthe feeling that you cannot control events or prevent unpleasent things from happening, especially when this feeling stops you from making decisions or making an effort.in another words.when i say i am fatalisticit means that i feel totally fucked up.because i managed to screw everything up again.it's not as bad as u think.it's worse.oh man i need a drink.
freedom in her soul at 11:33:00 PM
Thursday, May 19, 2005
failed chem fac test but made an improvement. make-up test next tue. forgot the names of nitrifying bacteria in bio test. sucks in estimation and hypothesis testing. oh man.irritated. pmsy. watch out.
freedom in her soul at 10:30:00 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
pe. played badminton and ran one round. feeling very hyper and jumpy. wah think my badminton today still not bad. haha cme. discuss abt pmsex and abortion. this generation is definately more open abt that. even ms yeo says so. haha my views? like wad i said. it really depends on the situation and individual. but there is not right or wrong ans to that as well. just ate ice cream! hahathat's my way of saying hi..
freedom in her soul at 11:15:00 PM
Monday, May 16, 2005
today = good day.pe. got a D for sit and reach! 31cm! wOa~ haha ya i know it isnt a lot but it is for me, having not be able to touch my toes with my knees str since, like.. forever.. haha and i managed to jump 178cm! haha i can jump over myself!! (horizontally of coz..) it helps to run just before u do 5 items for nafa.. so now i got A B CCC D = SILVER! haha no more pe for me~maths. okie failed my crv test.gp. NO GP! hahaodac. haiz.. sitting on the upper deck of bus 28. left hand side. 3/4 from the front. half-filled with passengers. air-con turned away. quiet except for music from my radio/ipod. that's the way i like it.
freedom in her soul at 11:57:00 PM
Sunday, May 15, 2005
kinda studying for my crv test now.. haiz my another weekend is gone like hat.. haiz.. still feeling very jumpy and restless. keep shifting in my seat and shaking my legs. wah going out later again. waHaHa! okie nuthing esle to say le bye!oh shit haven do gp compre.. haiz... wadeverni ai wo hai shi ta..
freedom in her soul at 1:56:00 PM
it's kinda late now but i'm feeling super restless! argh! haha..went to eat with the gang yest. cine cartel. chat. walk ard a little. got caught in the rain. saw some of my school pple while waiting for the rain to stop. they queuing to go clubbing. wonder when den can go. haiz have to wait for my friends' birthdays.. anyway after seeing them kinda turned off - dun think i am the clubbing sort of pple. hahaargh! lots of things running through my mind. but i can't pin-point them exactly. so basically i'm worry abt nuthing. wth. okie maybe not exactly nuthing. top on my worry list: odac and hmwk. OmG!!!!!! seeing them on the screen makes it worse!!! argh!! i'm losing it! you know the times when u feel like saying or doing sth but it's beyound ur control? then u feel angry for not being to control it earlier? ya i'm feeling it right now.. and it pretty much sucks.anyway! thanks ht, ker and zt for the bag and shirt!!! ^_^of the thirty-six ways of avoiding disaster, running away is best. - anonymous
freedom in her soul at 2:29:00 AM
Friday, May 13, 2005

scenes of sentosa palm trees..
freedom in her soul at 11:44:00 PM

.. and sunset bay.. pretty sky..
freedom in her soul at 11:43:00 PM

me with a $2.70 pepsi twist beside me (WaH~)
freedom in her soul at 11:37:00 PM

me and denise ->group leaders of the last group.. haha
freedom in her soul at 11:36:00 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005
happy birthday to me!! haha! THANK YOU all my friends!! oh man! you guys are such sweeties!! haha thanks lois and liyana for ur panda! i will be sure to torture it.. heHx.. thanks sherry, jialing, meifeng and jesline for ur necklace!! thanks vanessa, fiona and zheeloong for ur shirt and LEMONS! haha i love the lemons so cute lor! but the words kinda dropping off liao.. =( dun worry i will continue suaning u all!! muAhaha thanksthanks all my friends who smsed me!! see u all guys on sat!!! go eat k! haha but i dun think i can be as generous as yx to treat u all la.. haha! thanksthanks!! *hugs.....wah.. me so gan dong... thanksthanks...=~)
freedom in her soul at 5:37:00 PM

so.. can't blame me for getting excited rite.. haha
freedom in her soul at 12:24:00 PM

ray, me, sihua, yt, andy, kelvin @ aloha loyang [thanks guys!]
freedom in her soul at 12:24:00 PM

my first birthday cake in god-knows-how-many years
freedom in her soul at 12:24:00 PM
WoaHo~ just got back from andy's chalet. THANKS guys!! did i say i didnt wanna go? i'm so glad i went!! haha i'm really touched by them.. =~) kinda cosy just 6 pple around the bench talking abt 32 pizzahut drumsticks, an aquafresh toothbrush blah over longgan with tiger.. haha! so long nv see them le! andy, yt, ray and kelvin.. i promised ray that we'll call everyone and go kbox one day! his so.. erm mature now i think. getting so independent and working.. haiz.. anyway thanksthanksthanks! also thanks to everyone esle too!! i'm officially legally able to:drivedrinkchiongwatch m18 showssmoke (NOT that i want to)can do almost everything w/o parental consentand as nicole richie would say.. I"M LEGAL hahaha
freedom in her soul at 12:23:00 AM
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
mum got back yest. dad went china today. to settle my granddad stuff. but kinda used to having only one parent at home. went running yest (!) haha finally i know. coz got nafa 2.4km tml. scared ma.. i always have to do things the last min. just HAVE to. no choice. haha today make-up pe. go gym lift weights. X_X odac meeting after that. as usual. discuss camp, activities. feels like we're running an camp business thingy like es4e. haha anyway talk till 7pm.. -_-" so tired!! bought 2 books recently. on sat actually. haha had an urge to buy books. anyway just finish "the sisterhood of the travelling pants" now starting on "sophie's world" kinda chim but very interesting. no time to read at home but scared to bring to sch. very protective of new books.. haha wahaha 2 more days to my bday! very excited but dunno why. guess turning 18 is BIG thingy.. *gasp i'm getting old~ haiz.. how i'm gonna celebrate? hmm.. drink and get drunk? haha we'll see..tml going to andy's chalet/bbq. but so late! dunno to go home 1st or stay in sch den go str. OR dun go at all. haiz.. what you do speaks so loudly that i cannot hear what you say.
freedom in her soul at 11:55:00 PM
Friday, May 06, 2005
sports day. better den last year. more excitment. maybe it's coz we are running. anyway 12X100 got last. haha but good experience. the adrenaline rush. wind in the hair. wOaH~ haha that will be the last sports day. feel like time is really creeping up on us.. after the run when we stood together, felt a wave of mix emotions. gan dong. happiness. sadness. although.. will miss my class in a 'strange' way. ^_^ met ht at ps. yuan lai she wanna buy mothers' day present. walk around a bit. ate den went home. they having midyears liao.. so scary..changes.things. places. people. everything changes. for better for worse. no one can stop changes from happening. i'm afraid of changes. i'm afraid of 'last times', afraid of friends becoming strangers. i tried to hold on. but my hands are too full. 心會累 心會碎 可是心更怕後悔xin hui lei xin hui sui ke shi xin geng pa hou hui
freedom in her soul at 11:06:00 PM
sports day later. good: no school! hmm i mean no lessons!! somemore get to go by 11 sth!! heex.. bad: muz run the 12X100 relay. well that is not exactly a bad thing.. as in hey WE GOT IN! which is pretty worth mentioning.. well just run lor.. 1st time actually get to run at THE actual day.. kinda excited though.. hahaanother thing worth mentioning. tpjc band got a gold. (congrats lois!) cjc band got a gold (congrats bern!) ajc band got a silver (wonder how's sf?) woah.. it seems like almost every group in sch gets a gold or silver.. impressive rite?gonna meet ht later to go to a florist (?) for wad i also forget to ask.. haha anyway happy (belated) birthday andy!! haha next week ar.. wahaha
freedom in her soul at 1:05:00 AM
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
slacking ecessively. damn restless today. can't sit still for more den 5 mins. muz be the weather.. haha thankfully this is short week with monday holiday and friday sports day. though unfortunately mon and fri is 2 of the slackest days.. haiz.. trying to organise the dragon boat thingy. alone. -_- . hello? a 'you go organise. bye' dun really help a lot. thanks hor.. angered.. have been smsing ppl the whole night liao.. dad: is it convenient for u to go to sch on ur own?me: (wad?!) erm.. ya why?dad: coz have to drive da ge to camp every morning.me: oh.. ya can ar.of coz i have to say can rite? it's a family thingy.. waH~ have to wake so early.. haiz.. okie should be studying! or esle someone will scold.. look i'm on busy okie?? hahaand we were dancing and it feels so rightcan't hold me down i'm gonna reach for the sky
freedom in her soul at 8:11:00 PM