Wednesday, March 30, 2005
chem test on mon - fAiLchem test on tue - fAiLbio spa trial today - heckprepare for re-testS ba..ran 4 rounds for pe and nearly died. haiz my stamina so lan.. odac meeting. talk talk and more talk. haiz..doing things on impulse. living for the moment OnLY.
freedom in her soul at 9:49:00 PM
Sunday, March 27, 2005

'black, pink, tree' haha
freedom in her soul at 2:39:00 AM
fridayuncle's death anniversary. went temple with mum and dad. usually my 2nd bro is the one but since he is in army i have to take his place. wonder who will continuse to bring food to my uncle and granddad when my parents are 'not here anymore'.. will my bro and i continue the tradition? i highly doubt so.. but i hate to think that they will be 'starving'.. haiz..lo min gan ('day' market). went to this place near bugis (?) after going temple. dad got lobang on cooking pots etc. my mum loves these kind of things.. well well.. anyway while they are buying i looked around this 'market'. they sell all 2nd hand stuff-ranging from handphones, calculators, clothes, books, half-used contact lens solution, blahblah.. kinda interesting though and it is really a place to get good deals esp pots and hps. real cheap compared to outside 2nd hand shops. orchard. met him. went orchard to get presents. walked around-window shopping. bought a skirt.saturdaymet jy to pass her some stuff. met ker and shuwen at cine before meeting up with ht. saw germ, mag and michelle at orchard. look around to buy presents. had quite a hard time buying them. met up with the rest of the gang. ate at nydc. haha we are all 1st-timers! celebrated cm, xiong and zt's bday. bday song, cakes and all. haha kinda weird coz i think we hardly buy cakes and stuff for bdays. haha went kbox. sang along (or screamed) endless jaychou and SHE songs. haha "fen shou ba! wo men fen shou ba!!..." i think i am truly lucky to have them as my friends. although we do not meet up often, you get that feeling that they will always be there, mo mo de pei ze ni, sat reserved to go out together. our friendships are very simple and nice- no politics wad-so-ever. i wonder wad will it be like when we are all grown up, having diff careers, some married, some with children etcetc. haha how funny and nice will it be if we were to still hang out together. haha =) but no matter wad i will always treasure this friendship we shared.. you! stop making lemonade because of me..happy (belated) birthday cheemin!happy birthday yixiong!happy birthday zeting!happy birthday jialing!
freedom in her soul at 2:39:00 AM
Thursday, March 24, 2005

haha nice? haha
freedom in her soul at 10:01:00 PM
had a new hairstyle! haha finally! had been hesitating for the past one year. today FiNaLLy go rebonding with jy. haha didnt have much mental preparation for it. i was like "aiya just get over and done with! stop considering, just do it!!" weLL.. it wasnt very bad.. (i think.. erm.. i hoPe) haha now feel kinda relieve (pHeW..) and worried (how to go for pe?!) haha gonna scare all my friends next time i see them.. i dun think they thought i will actually go and do it lor.. hahastupid andy say i look fat and lian.. thanks hor kor..
freedom in her soul at 9:52:00 PM
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
been forgetful lately, mon - forgot bio to bring lect notes, tue - bio tutorial, today - pe shirt and bio tutorial again! tml - forgot to do bio tutorial. why?! coz i am studying for (or suppose to..) a maths test which i wun pass! well.. at least i make an effort to fail in a graceful way~ hahaha anyway! had odac meeting today (haiz..). mum came back (why can't she wait for 2 more days?!). hmm that's abt all. back to studying!when is the expiry date for love?forever is too early and long to say..oh ya! selamat hari jadi liyana!
freedom in her soul at 11:03:00 PM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
kinda lagging behind in studies but sTiLL managing i guess.. today's the posting results for the 'o' lvl students. jy got into interior designing! haha nice rite? like very fun.. anyway we are going to rebond our hair either tml or thur. FiNaLLY~ after saying from like last year? haha can't wait~after last night i realise no matter how convincing some things may seem, there is always another side to the story. pple shouldnt just judge things without knowing the other side too. and despite anything, it is still better to have a friend than a stranger. after today i realise some things just never change. teaching cy later again. he wun ask me abt it because there is some kind of understanding between us. he is not stupid actually.
freedom in her soul at 6:45:00 PM
Sunday, March 20, 2005
school's starting tml.. back to the days of no life.. haiz.. really wish that the holidays will never end.. from tml onwards.. things will be different.. changes that i dread.. tong hua li du shi pian ren de, 'ni' bu ke nen shi 'wo' de wang zi..
freedom in her soul at 5:56:00 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
one second i am in light. the next second i am surrounded by darkness. yes, it is the typical blackout scene. haha.. anyway it is saturday! omg! so fast! haiz.. so many things happened.. well okie maybe not. but still.. heex.. anyway my point is.. HoLiDaYs ArE OvEr and A LvL is NeAriNg! haiz.. but wad the heck. shopping later!! haha
freedom in her soul at 2:40:00 AM
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
girl is supposed to forgetboy is supposed to forgetbut girl can't forget because she still wanna be friendsand boy can't forget because he dun wanna be friendsso both pretend to forget while feeling like a lemonTHE ENDBaby I love you and i'll never let you goBut if I have to boy I think that you should knowAll the love we made can never be eraseAnd i promise you that you will never be replacedBut if the day come that i'll have to let you goI think there's something I should probably let you knowEnjoyed everyday that i've spent with you And i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all
freedom in her soul at 6:04:00 PM
Monday, March 14, 2005
wad did u get for ur chinese? 3 3? is that good? got pass or not?yawad is the mark range for 3? 50 plus ar?... dunnowad did ur brother got?dunnowhy 3? u muz study harder okie! everyday i also nv let u do work yet u dun do well. u know ar ..............................................................................*close door**enters kitchen and sit down*haiz.. why get a 3....*stands up and leaves*stop it. please stop it.. i'm so tired.. so tired.....[go watch hitch and robots. they are very funny. esp robots:extremely chair-rocking-tears-falling-stomach-aching funny.]
freedom in her soul at 11:26:00 PM

introducing.. 1/2 of the ohfive gers! haha
freedom in her soul at 1:26:00 AM
went for miss nuraida's wedding! she smiled till so serene.. so peaceful like that. no wonder pple always say a bride is always beautiful.. haha took lots of pics.. people send me those pics!! anyway it was fun and interesting seeing the malay culture wedding despite perspiring buckets. well rather sunny den rainy rite? watch lemony snicket: series of unfortunate event with some of ohfive gers! i think it is a nice movie lor! although it's dark but it is that kind of bittersweet.. the casting is awesome. but the plot got some loopholes. like wad's with the spyglass thingy? why the court wanna burn down the buildings? how come the postman still post letters to a burn-down hse?! a series of unsolved mysteries.. haha had dinner with lois before going home. wait for the bus like for 20 mins.. plus the incredibly long bus ride.. equals = butt pain.. ow..watched the 11pm show- double score. love Oshio Manabu!! haha his character so cute and blurblur like that. haha =)
freedom in her soul at 12:52:00 AM
Saturday, March 12, 2005
just returned from the bbq @ btty. hmm quite a success i guess. haha so tiring! ran all over the place to make sure everything is okie. hardly ate anything. kinda weird to see so many generations of ex-bttyians together. some graduated so long ago that i dun even noe if they are really ex-students. i always felt very old when i return to btty. but compared to my seniors/peer leaders who are in university etc, they look so mature! i wonder if 2 years later will we be liked that too? but likewise, my juniors ,even though graduating this year, still look as though they are in sec1. haha! anyway saw quite a lot of my clsmates. but didnt talk much though. it's funny to see btty-tpjcians there. the feeling of seeing them there is so diff. i hardly say hi to mahes in tpjc but there, it is like we actually KNOW each other. WoAh.. haha for me, the fun part only started when the whole event is over when sihui, ht, zulia and i start playing with the soccer and pool table. but as usual the singh have to stop the fun. i think being the om is only his part-time job. he is a dementor full-time. sucks out all the fun with a sadistic streak and enjoys terrorising people, whether u are a student or not. argh~ [wadever~] hmm although the whole process of organising and stuff is damn tiring, i hope it is an annual thingy. (nvm anyway since we are stepping down next year.. haha)oh ya! happy holidays!!! nuthing (much) on my calender but can foresight much-required studying (?!) haiz..
freedom in her soul at 1:40:00 AM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
the card that sits inside my drawer, waiting to be written.thoughts of concern in my head that are not sent out.messages yet to reply, calls yet to return.promises that i hadnt carried out.. : S O R R Y : .
freedom in her soul at 11:53:00 PM
Friday, March 04, 2005
got the cl results. WaHa! totally surprise! didnt have much confidence ma.. heex.. moderation totally helped me this time again.. but all in all, i'm just glad and relieve that it is all over and i dun have to study anything cl for .. erm? the rest of my life?! WaHa!went for the career exhibition. now even more confused liao.. die how? design or life science? suddenly i am brought back to the time when i was doing the utility holder for home econs cls.. everyone (including me) wanna do teddy bears coz it is more cute and popular. but in the end no more cloth and the teacher ask me to do clowns instead. i was so demoralised and sad la (ermm a bit silly rite..) but in the end the end-product was really nice and special (to me coz i'm the oNLY one doing clowns). haha a bit out of point liao but the thing is that now the situation is somewhat similiar. should choose sth more practical or sth of interest? haha but i guess i have no hope of getting into design unless i apply poly or sth.. that guy's 'expression' says it all.anyway ate luncnier (lunch + dinner?) with s05 girls before going for sca meeting. kinda iritated with the bbq thingy.. kinda dreadful too.. haiz.. one heavy week coming up~i'm not ur me when i am with them. do u get wad i mean?
freedom in her soul at 11:56:00 PM
Thursday, March 03, 2005
went tp with jj and clemance. they went there for dae. waited for 45 mins for them! *angered.. anyway saw junyi there!! she says she is going to take architecture but can see she wanna take business.. haiz.. wad a troubling time for them.. haha anyway so long nv see her liao! we kept talking and talking till the guys have to pull us away to eat. took a taxi down to orchard for dinner. we continue talking till the taxi drvier turned his radio up so loud! haha met up with sherry and her fren to eat at crystal jade. all of them just took their olevel results and are pretty troubled because they bu shi fail maths jiu shi fail eng.. haiz.. i didnt say much la since i am like in no position to say anything. all i can say is that i muz really learn a thing or two abt their spirit. anyway our group is of a funny combination that even sherry pointed it out. coz i nv even speak to clemance till today. jy hardly hang out with jj. but still they are a humourous gang there is always a joke going around. hahatml getting 'a'lvl chinese!! hmm.. but also dun feel very scared or wad..hahabtw happy bday izree! saw him getting his bday bash and thrown with eggs etc haha memorable eh?
freedom in her soul at 11:15:00 PM
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
had a long day today.. bioSPA. 2.6km trial run. need to train more!!cme talkgirl talk inside librarysaw lihua today on bus!! she now in bedok ite. call my name so loud! scare me.. haha miss her!!! i saw her through her sec sch life. from a rookie sec 1 bandsmen to a qm to my asl, to a senior who the juniors (and other bandsmen) will remember for her. seeing her really bring a lot of memories back.. *sighs dreamily.. mr tan was right afterall. band life is truly an unforgetable experience in my life..odac activity - cycling! haha very fun. 1st time cycling on double bike! with vanessa! haha kinda ying xian at times but still okie. arms (from being too rigid), knees and butt pain.. kinda paiseh to be the last to reach the bedok jetty. noordin was taking photos, everyone was staring. daryk even called me (but i didnt noe) muz had tot we went missing or sth.. haha!took almost all modes of transport today.. dad's car, bus, bike, taxi.. now feel as though the memories are slipping away.. muz be too tired liao.. haiz.. another weekend is approaching liao! good or bad? u decide!
freedom in her soul at 10:45:00 PM
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
just came home from dinner with my gerfrens and kelvin. ht saw him in j8 while waiting for me. haha so long nv see him liao somemore i was just talking abt him yest.. haha anyway he treat us eat sakae! feel kinda bad coz we ask him to eat with us and he still pay for us.. somemore he is in such a dilemma now.. haiz.. anyway we were talking abt 'our future' again.. abt universities, wad courses to take, our interests and dreams.. the future.. seems kinda bleak.. where are we going on from here onwards? i'm really doubtful. now i have no goal or aim. no motivation to push on. many pple say,"aiya nvm la just get a good 'a'level result den decide!" ya who doesnt want to have good results? but without a goal, we will be doing things without a purpose; aimlessly and blindly. even with good results, u will still have to choose which path to take. by then with a much shorter time to decide, aint u back to sq one? when is the time when u stop and reflect on whether u are on the right path? when u get the results? wad if u realise that u should be doing something esle? "make the best out of the situation.." who doesnt wan to?! but how? ker says i look like a teacher. many pple say i should go into life sciences. so should i be a bio teacher? i dun wan to get a job which i have always been telling myself NOT to end up with. teaching is one of them. that's why i want to have a goal in life! i dun wan to waste anyMORE time running around in circles. isnt it better to know wad u wanna be and work directly towards it? i dun wan to regret and find myself telling my juniors not to follow the path i took. so i envry those who have already decided. no matter how far-fetch, difficult their goals are, at least they DARED to dream and they are working towards it. why cant we?now life is just a routine we have to go through. studying is just a job to get us to.. who knows where. as ker sums it all,"nuthing in life can be done easily.."
freedom in her soul at 11:35:00 PM