Friday, November 26, 2004
i'm back!! tired? hmm now not really liao.. haha 3 days 2 nights passed like so quickly that it feels like only 2 days or so.. the days seemed all jumbled up and stuff.. lois is right about the shortage of memory space thingy when u have not enuff sleep (i slept abt 6 hours in 2 nights combined) but well i can say it is like the most slack camp i have been to.. haha imagine camps where we get to go j8 shopping, eat ice-cream and tapokachi outside school, wander around, sleep almost as and when u like (except during nightime.. haha ironic right?) etc.. haha it definatly feels good to be instructors.. haha! i really pei fu amritpal and his committee for putting everything together.. spend so much time and effort!! now bits and pieces of the camp is coming back..
... playing 5 stones at mac... feeling damn cold at night... blasting water bombs at everyone... eating dinner in wet clothes... bathing 'with' ht... winning captain's ball... getting 'scolded' by yeo... pt at macritchie... playing balloon volleyball with sihui... the embarrassing (haha) video by ker... all the speeches by amrit and ker... finding the 'fabric of the nation' clue with judy... 'wrapping' kelvin up with ht and eventually converted it to a game for the sec2s (MAJOR HAHAs)... eating biskut gula... crapping with ht, sihui and peishan during gala night... playing daidee with ht, sahairi, jy, ker nor... NAME GAME (pi-ha-pa-la-pi-la-BOM)... planning the obstacles with edmund... getting pulled down twice by sec2s during trust-fall... falling down and having kel as 1st aid... talking to ker... the fashion parade... the fake presentations... eating meepok.. the sec2s elimentations... eating strapels... and EVERYTHING ESLE!!
i'm glad for once the 2 maincoms had worked togather.. wahaha i had definately had fun.. had sort of forgotten some people previously but after this camp, it kinda relieve the days when we were still in the main com organising and holding camps, teachers' day, prom nite.. haiz.. miss the days LOTS! love u guys!!! hahaha ***SCA***
haha after the camp i went to watch the incredibles with junyi,rx and sherry.. haha felt kinda bad coz i promised to watch it with ht although she will be watching with her clsmates.. anyway it is SO NICE!!!!! haha so funny!!! a must-watch! (although we had the 'best' seats..1st row, most left corner) haha anyway the whole night is so funny and lame with that bunch of pple! haha jy will forever be so enthu and crazy, rx-lame and always bullied by us, sherry-funny and witty! haha always expect the craziest thing to happen, like running from the summerset 7-11 to paragon 7-11 to buy mrsoftee for the keychain before rushing for the last train, etc.. haha i love being with jy coz it seems like everything is possible! her craziness will always spread to me and make me totally lame and crazy too! LoLx~ till now i'm still feeling high from it.. haha
okie better go sleep liao.. tml muz pack for overseas camp and go mr noordin's hse for lunch (!?!) okie nite!!!!!
freedom in her soul at 3:05:00 AM
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
freaking sick now.. severe flu, rashes, sore throat, sunburn etcetc.. tml still got camp.. expect 3 days without sleep, rest, enuff nutrients and with lots of sun, exercise, games etc.. will die by the end of it all.. everyone is sick.. how to have camp?!
nvm muz presevere! one more week and everything will be over!!! haiz.. counting down..
freedom in her soul at 1:43:00 AM
Monday, November 22, 2004
does sad songs make people sad? if that's the case why do pple listen to sad sappy songs when they are sad?
sometimes i feel like a fool..stupid fool to be used by ppl.. ungrateful fool that dunno how to appreciate ppl who are good to me.. lazy fool who can't take her initiative.. coward fool to keep things silent..
.. but still i like sad songs..
freedom in her soul at 1:03:00 AM
Sunday, November 21, 2004
lost track of time.. today is friday or saturday? time feels so meaningless.. these few days had been a blur.. did nuthing much other than slacking around, eating, watching tv, reading.. WAITING FOR MY SKIN TO PEEL FINISH!! how can it be winter in the central area yet be summer somewhere near the sea?? *mystery of the season* finished reading another dan brown's book within 24 hours.. should be preparing for my camps next week.. but also dunno wad to pack.. my mind so lazy to think of anything.. last thing on my mind is hmwk.. dunno how am i gonna survive school reopens.. *drEadFuL* juz got x'mas voucher from my aunt.. will be shopping for books soon.. although i prefer shopping for clothes or sth.. haha! *wondering around like a lost soul..*
i really dunno how to answer to your question.. sort of caught me by surprise.. i'm surprise i cannot think of an answer str away.. but after much thinking i guess my answer stands.. *listening to your song now..*
tian hei hei, hui bu hui rang wo wang le ni shi shui.. quite true eh?
i just like listening to sappy love songs.. no strings attached
freedom in her soul at 1:43:00 AM
Friday, November 19, 2004

my one star cert!! so proud of it! exchange 2 days of fatigue,one week of sunburn, injuries and muscle pain for it kiE! haha
freedom in her soul at 12:55:00 AM
finally.. the 2 days are over.. yeah! oMg.. so damn tired.. 1st thing i did when i reach home was to sleep str away.. can't do anything at all-can't stretch, straighten my arms, bend my fingers.. even when i lying down motionless, my body ache like mad and can feel my skin stinging so badly.. dunno how am i gonna bathe sia.. actually i can't even type properly also coz my fingers like fixed in a piano-playing position.. haha the back of my hands is the worse! always forget to put sunblock there plus it is the most exposed area.. ArGh.. so xin ku.. think i will hiberate at home for a month.. wait for the skin to peel (oh! hope not!!!) and get better and for my muscles to recover.. eh? one month? like school start liao hor.. argh.. den next week very intense got 2 camps one after another.. only separated by one day.. haiz.. better rest as much as possible now.. wah i can't really imagine next year taking the 2 star course.. it is like imagining u have to go for course again tml.. oMg! but it was kinda fun anyway.. overall, i enjoyed myself la.. BtW, for the overseas trip we also have to kayak in the river (!) but meanwhile anyone got tips on how to cure sunburns? haha..
i wanted to tell u to be more active, to jiayou more.. coz i dun wan anything to change. i dun wan to miss u. i dun wan things to get awkward in the end.. but in the end i didnt have the courage to tell u.. sorry..
it is not that i dun care.. i just have no more strength play any games with u.. i know u are tired but i am too! physically and emotionally tired..
erk! i even smell like the sea water!! *sniff*sniff*
freedom in her soul at 12:44:00 AM
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
i lived! haha i survived 2 capsize drills and one trial one! yeaH! haha okie la.. it wasn't that bad.. but at 1st have to sort of psycho urself to capsize urself.. haha actually there isn't much to do when u capsize (except to tap the kayak 3 times), u will automatically float to the surface.. only that u will drink in a LOT of sea water.. which u can see is very dirty.. oh well.. but quite fun leh i think.. haha i dunno abt tml but so far i pretty much enjoyed myself.. except the bruises, cuts, orh-chei, fibre glass, sun burn, fatigue, salt-water-in-nose feeling and waking-up-to-an-aching-body thoughts.. ya quite fun... haha
i look like a lobster, feel like a lemon (whole body very suan(1) haha get it?) and my brain feel like it is still swimming in the changi jetty.. okie better slp liao.. haha see if i survive tml too!
freedom in her soul at 11:19:00 PM
going kayaking tml.. a little scared.. hope the capsize drill dun drown me.. X_X
i'm pretty worried.. but i guess everyone has to go through that patch sooner or later.. hope they can make it.. =)
i lied.. i didnt forget abt it at all.. haha.. so stupid of me to keep checking my phone and holding my breath when i THOUGHT the phone rings.. haha haiz.. i noe wad u mean.. but i.. haiz.. nvm..
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Wo Rang Ni Zou Le - pan wei bo
hui jia de lu shang wo ku le
yan lei zai yi ci beng kui le
wu nun wei li zhe yang zou zhe
zai ye bu gan jiao ao she qiu le
wo hai nun gou suo xie se mo
wo hai nun gou zou xie se mo
wo hao xi wang ni hui ting jian
ying wei ai ni wo rang ni zou le
freedom in her soul at 1:25:00 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
just minutes ago, i am in one corner writing my diary in the dark. but now, things have became much more clearer! now i understand that in life, there will always be people out to do or say stupid things to hurt u or bring u down.. but wad for care abt those ppl?! just simply throw them aside and move on! why be sad or bothered by some idiot's useless and unconstructive opinions? wad they think is their own business! so from now onwards i shall be happier than before.. i am gonna put my life back on track.. i am gonna live a healthy lifestyle (exercise more and eat more healthy food), study hard and be successful and totally independent.. i will not depend on anyone for anything coz i have learnt that even family members can betray one another.. most imptly, i want to be happy.. i wun let anything make me sad or lose my cool again.. never will i be in the state i was just now..
*pHew.. glad i thought things out.. haha sorry ht and ker.. hope i didnt spoil ur fun.. really sorry things turn out that way.. hahaha gonna face the music tml but who cares? everything WILL gonna be alright in the end.. hahahaha
freedom in her soul at 3:13:00 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
okie i lied.. i still remembered.. nVm shall sleep later tonight..
had the weirdest dream last nite.. so fake that i keep telling myself in the dream that i must be dreaming.. yet when i woke up i still look for the letter that appeared in my dreams.. haha weird right? haha funny how your mind works when u are sub conscious.. hmm.. haha
haiz.. should had agreed to go out today..
freedom in her soul at 2:10:00 PM
looking back i can't believe how well have i forgotten about the incident.. i have to admit i have a great selective memory.. but now everything's flooding back.. last time i was only suspicious but now i am confrimed.. he thinks he is so clever in hiding it.. but i tell, u are wrong.. so freaking WRONG coz now i know.. i hate u.. hate u so much.. for bringing hurt and confusion.. for being so DAMN SELFISH!! how can u do this to us.. i am so disappointed.. i hate u.. but u noe wad? i am not gonna say.. coz i dun care.. wad u wanna do it is UR business.. i am not gonna get hurt or affected by u anymore.. coz by tml, i am not gonna remember anything that had happened.. my days will continue on..
freedom in her soul at 1:12:00 AM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
tired.. didnt buy anything as expected.. haha coz muz really plan my money wisely.. cannot buy anything on impulse liao.. haiz..
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keep looking at the letter you sent me.. haha.. gave me quite a surprise.. but thanks.. remember to give me present too hor! heez..
hate being forced.. hate being pressurized.. hate conforming to the expected..
that's why i like to be with u.. a girl also need to feel special sometimes..
freedom in her soul at 10:25:00 PM

ht, me, runxuan(student of the year), junyi (my best flautist fren), scottie
freedom in her soul at 12:32:00 AM

princesses!! haha
freedom in her soul at 12:28:00 AM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
watched princess diaries with ht today.. nice show!! so funny also.. haha after the movie, me and ht were like... wah... speechless.. OmG~ the princess Mia is so pretty!!~ very inspired to go buy clothes liao! haha which is good coz tml ker, ht and i are going shoppiNG!~ hEhx.. later have to write down another shopping list liao.. heez.. walked around j8 before taking neoprints and eating.. haha tml will surely get gan by my mum for going out everyday.. haiz.. no choice la..
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addicted to your song.. silly rite?
freedom in her soul at 11:16:00 PM
世界末日 - 周杰伦
天灰灰 会不会 让我忘了你是谁
夜越黑 梦违背 难追难回味
我的世界将被摧毁 或许颓废也是另一种美
if the system cannot support chinese, this is the hanyupinping..
shi jie mo ri - zhou jie lun
tian hui hui, hui bu hui rang wo wang le ni shi shui
ye yue hei, meng wei bei, nan zhui nan hui wei
wo de shi jie jiang bei cui hui, ye xu tu xu ye shi yi zhong mei
freedom in her soul at 4:00:00 AM
hmm.. a little tired even after sleeping at 5 hours in the afternoon.. haha the chalet is okie i guess.. a bit sian hor.. but kinda expected ba.. gonna give a brief summary haha:
1st NitE
hmm actually i didnt ate much of the bbq food.. haha only ate the pizza den full liao.. watched tv.. played double dare.. i hate such games so stupid but funny la.. had a good luff.. slack around..
twLigHt
sat at the beach.. mr choong tell us ghost stories.. talk among ourselves.. played some "IQ" games.. haha very funny lor.. especially for those who duno.. keep guessing and guessing.. sort of figured everything out except for the 'coffee and tea' one.. haha but i think i like the 'petals around the rose' (alvin's version) best.. i think that makes the most sense though it is the lamest.. haha.. basically slacked around.. play daidee (lost everytime) and bluff(always with the greatest amt of cards) till the morning..
MoRniNg
almost everyone left in the morning after going to see the sunrise (s'pore where can see nice sunrise??!), leaving only mona and anna(sleeping in the room), lois, aloy, izree, by and me talking.. and suddenly everyone stopped talking and fell asleep.. haha when i woke up, hidayat had already arrived.. we took turns to shower den head out to eat mac.. go play pool (very cheap only $2.80 per hour..) saw some tpjc pple(feixiang, og fren etc) and btty pple(felix, seamus,js) played arcade.. before leaving saw yuxi.. haha took bus88 and slept all the way.. rained so bloody heavily.. yuxi called me and i mistaken him for (1) andy and (2) jj.. haha so paiseh.. anyway slept all the way to 8 when i reach home..
haha okie that's abt it all.. muz recall everything now coz lois tell me when you never sleep for long time, your memory gets affected coz the brain cannot absorb info or sth.. can feel the effects now liao.. haha..
hmm.. i wonder how many pple is at the chalet now.. haha
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(bishan) walkedwalked - (j8) ate - walked (bishan park) walked (amk) walkedwalked (central) - drink - walked - pool - ran (bus interchange) ran (bus stop) - waitwaitwait - ran (mrt station) - walkedwalked - flagged - zoom (bishan park) zoom (j8) zoom (bishan)
.:my day with u:.
if u dun need me anymore, dun act as though u need.. u dun, do u? dunno to feel happy or not..
we can never be as one.. there will always be a wall, curb anything in the way.. perhaps only by overcoming obstacles can we succeed.. but our time is running out..
freedom in her soul at 2:50:00 AM
Sunday, November 07, 2004

7_fiShEs
freedom in her soul at 3:02:00 PM
haha finally my computer (together with scanner and all) are working! haha so now uploading the pics we took yest~ hEex..
tml ohfourASSohfive chalet!~ haha
freedom in her soul at 3:01:00 PM

me(1) & ht(2) ^_^
freedom in her soul at 2:57:00 PM

6_fiShEs (i'm taking the photo DuH~)
freedom in her soul at 2:56:00 PM
either something's wrong with my phone or my laptop.. i can't infra-red the photos we took today! everytime i try my phone will crash and hang.. *huMpH* and my scanner is not working as usual.. haiz.. NvM.. watched SHARK TALES~ at 1st i tot it is sth like finding nemo but den it is waay funnier den that but the plot isn't thAt good.. should watch! haha plus it have great soundtracks.. i think they are are so many new movies coming out! the incredibles, polar express, bridget jones' diary, princess diaries.. hmm.. okie-so call me childish or girlie.. but I WANNA WATCH THEM ALL! haha i'm gonna be so broke.
i wonder why am i always so broke.. serious! i dun do a lot of shopping, i dun go out often (only like twice a week etc).. so where have all my money gone?! haiz.. muz start saving liao.. okie i had just came out with my shopping list but it is SoOo long that i decided to just put down those that i ReALLy want/need..
-levis jeans! haiz.. dunno say for how long liao..
-jacket (adidas?? haha)
-sports shoes
-contacts
-clutch bag
-shorts!! to wear when going somewhere near/downstairs/wadever so i dun have to keep wearing my sec sch ones..(so embarrassing..)
-stuff for the odac camp (which are so freakin' much)
plus i have to keep some money aside for:
-x'mas presents/cards
-lois bday present (btw if lois u are reading this pls tell me wad u wan kiE!)
-outing money--> transport/food etc..
so ht, when go shopping? haha
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if i wun be the first, i shall be the last..
struck.struck.struck. where does my responsibilities lies? oh no.. sometimes i really wish i know fen shen shu.. haiz.. 2 more days...
freedom in her soul at 2:57:00 AM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
our individual lives will continue on as though we never met
all that remains will be the name in the contacts
and the face in the friendster
but i am glad out paths crossed..
thank u my friend..
freedom in her soul at 4:05:00 PM
wah.. okie how's the new template?! haha found it after quite a while.. haha okie very tired liao.. later going out with the gang-watch shark tales! haha will take photos again!
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struck in between.. it is not like if i didnt choose u, i dun care abt u.. in fact i care more..
freedom in her soul at 2:24:00 AM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
shld be studying cl now.. but so sian can.. haiz.. think i will do some other sch paper later ba.. will be teaching jj at the ghost infested area later.. haha
ArGH! sianiSm~
freedom in her soul at 2:00:00 PM
op finally over.. now i declare that i have nuthing to do with pw anymore! i presented so damn freaking bad esp for my q&a-was like stumbling, 'erm..'ing all the time.. wun be surprised if i got a AE.. haiz.. shld have seen it coming.. this whole day is just full with bad omen.. (#1) yufan was late. CAN U BELIEVE ThAt?!? it is the sort of thing u always think it will only happen to someone esle.. but apparently with yufan around, everything and anything is possible.. (and i meant it in the negative sense) so it is like everyone has to wait for him while he go home and take the disc containing the presentation slides.. which in the end we didnt use at all.. w.o.a.h.~ well.. look at the bright side.. at least he came.. okie. wadever, pw over and i dun give a damn.
my travelling journal for yest..
-to school in dad's car
-back to tpy on bus8
-back home on bus 159
-to near sch bus stop on bus28
-to school on bus17
-back home on bus28
wah.. i like wasted more than $2 on transport yest.. maybe shld have bought the concession stamp. --->(#2)
(#3) was late for odac meeting and found out i forgot to attend the ex-co meeting the day before.. totally slipped off my mind.. opps..
had dinner with jj before teaching him maths. cy and daniel(6N). cy telling us ghost stories again.. only those are his qing shen ti yan.. when he reached home he called jj and said he saw one again right at the carpark behind us... eRm... o.k.i.E.. -->(#4)
feel like it has been a long day.. no.. it seems like it is 2 diff days to me.. well must be all the travelling and teaching.. but do not be mistaken, i like and enjoy both of them.. esp the latter.. that's y maybe i shld join the teaching profession.. hMm.. how does Ms Li sounds?! hahaha! anyway today muz start studying for cl liao.. haiz..
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i feel like i never belonged there..
maybe it is all a mistake..
no offense. i have nuthing against u but can u pls dun blow the smoke in my direction?
haiz.. u are still as thoughtful as before..
xie xie ni yi zi wei wo chao xiang..
isnt it true that when u concentrate on a certain part of ur life, another part goes astray.. so how can anyone's life be calm and peaceful? so why in the 1st place focus?
perhaps they just want to escape from a certain aspect of life.. escape to somewhere where they feel
safe. happy and
worry-free.. who wun want to be? but it dun last long, do it? when the utopia collapse, they will no longer be living in the past. instead they will be faced the harsh present..
2 more weeks...
freedom in her soul at 1:30:00 AM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
will be presenting in like 9 hours time.. freaking nervous can.. 9 hours and everything will be over.. all pw meetings, all evaluation thingy and all stupid time/resources/efforts-wasting pw WILL BE OVER!~ can't wait for that.. but meanwhile i got to worry for the freaking OP! omgOMG!~
haha anyway bern is also presenting later.. i really feel we got a lot of similarities.. band, same frens, kinda same thinking.. but can see she is very spontaneous and outgoing.. a very nice and fun person to be with ba.. see her frenster can tell liao.. haha anyway good luck to u too!!~
oh.. saw the email.. at 1st i tot wad was it.. some prank or sth.. den i realise it is from the crime library website.. haiz.. after more den one year, it is still not solved.. suddenly felt sad for her family members.. still remember her father used to call me and ask me if i noe anything.. haiz.. life is just so unpredictable..
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u are the catalyst.. u speed up reactions
u are the medium.. things happen when u are around.
if not for u, things will not become this way..
for that, i thank u..
freedom in her soul at 1:15:00 AM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
yaHoO~ finally i got to have a taste of THE SIMS 2.. haha but i haven really played it yet..long story but who cares?i finally got to play after like 4,5 days of installing and uninstalling..haha!! but bad news..i installed on my bro's laptop.. bound to get a majoR scolding from him..but if i manage to install it on my com and delete all traces of edvience from his laptop den maybe it is okie.. but i would still have an eye-witness-->BeRn, my new fren!! haha okie to be more specific, she is my bro's gf.. sweet rite?? my fren is also my bro's gf.. hmmm.. although kinda wierd and funny but.. haha ^_* i am just very excited (?!) and happy at this moment.. heez.. i dunno? it sorts of like make me feel more closer to my bro ba.. haha okokie shan't harp on it any further.. today is a happy happy day~~ heez..
oh ya! today o's start liao..goodluck!~
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haha~ who says i cannot play my game! hehx..
freedom in her soul at 1:37:00 AM
Monday, November 01, 2004
just finish typing and rewriting my script.. haven really memorise the new stuff yet.. haiz.. just finish playing a round of minesweeper with jj. for the 1st time he won.. it is really a close match lor.. 25-25 just need to find one more only lor.. den he tyco won just like that.. *humpH* haha okie gotta sleep liao.. tml still got pw meeting.. hopefully it is the last one too..
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wad?! same age? hmmm...
gotta out of my silliness-FaSt! ..but how come i feel like i dun wan to?
freedom in her soul at 2:44:00 AM